i finally see how much my body can hold.
oh the heart. the head. the eyes.
i can cross continents in two strides.
take the world in with all its good byes.
i can hold a man a thought a child.
i can fill my heart for a long passionate while.
yes so much space has been freed up.
without you I feel four kilos light.
it must be your departure that's making my skin glow.
friends wonder but what do they know.
my head multiplies complex numbers.
okay no it doesn't but who'd want to.
my head is filled with thoughts of someone else.
it's not overwhelming or overpowering.
i can safely dwell here in this space
that smells like almonds and feels like water.
it's hot now. he's doing that to me.
and yet there's room.
between my legs.
beneath the sheets.
balanced on the tips of my nipples
and the soles of my feet.
i can crumble discontent like it is a smoked weed and spit you out, an afterthought
lord knows that’s what i did.