what does she see
when she sees me
talking tough
walking tall
does she wonder at all
if she did right
or wrong
raising me different
from how i was born
is she proud of my now
at the classes i teach
and the thoughts i sow
in my words and
through my words
or does she wonder how
i got so
so neurotic
so lachrymose
writing suicide
and pain
when she is joyous
and rather insane
does she sit up late
at night
wondering how i might
turn out
cope with this life
and wonder am i
a good daughter
leave alone wife
do these thoughts cross
your mind ma
or do you rest assured
that you brought me up
right
and taught me well
and that it is
my choice
to seek
not heaven
but pain’s eternal damning hell.
when she sees me
talking tough
walking tall
does she wonder at all
if she did right
or wrong
raising me different
from how i was born
is she proud of my now
at the classes i teach
and the thoughts i sow
in my words and
through my words
or does she wonder how
i got so
so neurotic
so lachrymose
writing suicide
and pain
when she is joyous
and rather insane
does she sit up late
at night
wondering how i might
turn out
cope with this life
and wonder am i
a good daughter
leave alone wife
do these thoughts cross
your mind ma
or do you rest assured
that you brought me up
right
and taught me well
and that it is
my choice
to seek
not heaven
but pain’s eternal damning hell.
3 comments:
nice to see smtng b4 i leave..! may be ur mom's comments alone can give the best answer and an effective comment for this one!!
You know, I never kinda asked myself why do parents do nice things to me and always put my feelings before theirs. I guess, I could get a feel for what my dad felt only when I am a dad. I can't be a mom tho' and can never experience her feelings. It's however nice to watch a good movie or read a book or poem for that surrogate experience.
ur writing comes across as so very 'real'. i vote for mom's comment too !
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